Wednesday, March 25, 2009

The clouds have parted

Sometimes I go back to a post I've written and think what the hell was wrong me to write such drivel? Yesterday's post was one of those posts. I'm not sure what that pity party was all about but I'm totally over it. Your kind and supportive comments were greatly appreciated, and you helped me realize that my life really isn't all doom and gloom. Some days are just like that I guess, where the smallest annoyances seem monumental.

Today is a much better day. I've made peace with myself for some poor choices I made during the past year (with my therapist's help yesterday). I really do think things happen for a reason, and I think my poor choices have actually made me stronger. Even my marriage, which I thought would be destroyed by what I had done, seems to be stronger and better because of it. I really don't regret anything that's happened. For me to feel this way is huge. I've been packing around a load of guilt for almost a year.

Now for the task at hand. I want to get serious about losing the rest of this weight. I don't even know how much I weigh, I've been too afraid to face the scale, even at home. My clothes still fit, but the roll around my middle feels bigger. I know I've gained a few pounds and the first step is to get back to Weight Watchers.

According to my booklet, my last official weigh in was 2/17. Five weeks ago. A lot of damage can be done in that amount of time. There's a meeting tonight at 6pm. I'll be there for my weigh in. I need to get back on top of my game. Enough screwing around, blaming my emotions and my relationships for my lackadaisical attitude towards my weight loss.

I'll report the damage tomorrow. I'm sure it'll be ugly, but that's the purpose of this blog. The good, the bad and the ugly. Such is my life.


Ida said...

Glad things are better today. We all have bad times, the key is to get through them and to keep on keeping on. Blessings!

Graciela said...

Hi Diana, I'm sorry I didn't get a chance to read yesterday's post until now. I'm so glad you are feeling better today and that you and your hubby are back on good terms... nothing is sadder or more lonely or worse for sleep than going to bed angry.

Whatever happens at WW, it is all "fixable."

And the weather is better right's actually not raining! :-)

MizFit said...

SO GLAD YOUR DAY WAS A BIT BRIGHT and urge you, no matter the number, to keep that outlook.

you know where to find me if you need thoughts or idea on how to relaunch your attack :)

Ella Enchanted said...

I am so glad you are having a better day today & even happier that you went to the therapist. Good luck at the meeting tonight!!

antgirl said...

Keep your eye on the sunbreak [which I had never heard of until moving to the PNW :) ] always! It sounds corny and cliche, but I found that central to turning my attitude away from the dark side ... permanently. Learning to let go is a big thing. It's the best thing we can learn to do for ourselves.