My new plan
Several months ago I read this is suppose to help you eat less, and I'm desperate for something to help me reach my seemingly unattainable goal of 135 by my 54th birthday on August 7 (I still can't believe I'm so freaking old!).
That's just 16 weeks from now, and I'm about 22 pounds from 135. That means I need to lose 1.4 pounds per week, which sounds totally doable. I've been stuck in the 155-160 range for several months and I'm getting sick and tired of writing about it and thinking about it. I just want to get to goal and start maintenance. I started maintenance about 22 pounds too early.
This past week I went back to my old routine of counting Points all day, then eating too much in the evenings and not tracking my Points at the end of the day. Obviously this is a very bad plan and one that doesn't work for me.
It was a hell of a week at work, long hours, major stress, too many virus tiger team meetings, and a presentation in the midst of off this chaos. Only three workouts all week because by Thursday I was running on too little sleep and too many hours at work. Things are pretty much back to normal so I can't use work as an excuse for not staying on plan.
Breakfast: 6 Points
1 English Multi-grain muffin
1 slice 2% cheddar cheese
4 slices Canadian Bacon
Mid-morning snack: 1.5 Points
2 Honey Tangerines
(picture is of one tangerine because I forgot I was suppose to take a picture)
Lunch: 5.5 Points
4 oz. chicken breast
1 Light Italian Flatout bread
2 T. non-fat mayo
1/4 cup onion
1/2 cup jicama
1 cup grape tomatoes
Afternoon snack: 2 Points
1 cup red grapes
1 Activia Light yogurt
1/2 cup Fiber One
Dinner: 8 Points
6 oz. chicken breast
1 T. barbecue sauce
1 cup roasted Brussels Sprouts
1 1/2 tsp. olive oil
Snack: 2.5 Points
2 cups strawberries
1 sugar-free vanilla pudding cup
Total Points: 24.5
I'm allowed 19 daily Points, so 24.5 is perfect.
APs earned: 4 (1 hour workout)
In the locker room at the gym today I watched a woman struggling with bolt cutters trying to cut her lock off her locker. She was about 40, and she didn't have any muscle tone in her arms. She was a little overweight, but not much. I asked her if I could help her and she gladly handed over the bolt cutters to me. She said her lock had jammed and she couldn't get it open.
When I took the bolt cutters I thought man, this is going to be really embarassing if I can't cut this lock. Luckily, I snapped it like it was a toothpick. It barely took any effort on my part. I love having muscles! It's worth every minute I spend at the gym lifting weights.
I'm discontinuing my marriage blog. I can barely keep up with one blog, much less two. So I'll post updates about my marriage here, as part of my regular blog, under the title of "The marriage". If people don't want to read about it, they can just skip it.
So how are things going with my husband and myself? They've never been better. I can't remember being happier in my marriage at any other time during the past 20 years, and my husband says the same thing. A little part of me is sad that we wasted so much time being so unhappy with each other. A larger part of me is delighted we seem to have found what works for us.
Contemplating divorce and almost losing each other has made a huge difference in how we treat each other. We're so much kinder and gentler and loving to each other. The book The Love Dare has also had a dramatic affect on how we act towards each other. We're only on day 25 because of me being sick with bronchitis, then the traveling, then this week my work was crazy, but we're still reading the book when we can and still doing the things from the past 24 days. I really believe this book has changed our lives.
We stopped marriage counseling. We went to two sessions and both agreed it was stupid. The counselor who is suppose to be really good and came highly recommended seemed to be an idiot. When she put that awareness chart on the floor and started explaining it, I knew it wasn't going to work. Then the Chakra shit, neither one of us could get into that. Too much hocus pocus junk.
We've had a few fights, but we fight differently. There's a kindness in him I've never seen before, even when he's really mad at me he doesn't step over the line and neither do I. I haven't mentioned the word divorce once, not even in the heat of an argument when I totally disagree with him. Divorce just isn't an option for us anymore, and that changes everything. When you really believe in a lifetime commitment to one another, it changes your behavior. At least it has for us.
Two days ago I received the email below from a coworker and friend. It's from a guy I worked very closely with for five years. In fact, he was my mentor when becoming a developer. I read his email and started to cry. He's 39 years old, married 11 years, two boys, ages 4 and 6. His wife works for the same company as we do and is in senior management. He's getting custody of the kids. His email broke my heart. I don't understand all these disposable marriages these days.
Although, I was totally ready to throw my own marriage away a few months ago, so I guess I should understand it. Thank God I didn't follow through on that insanity. I really don't know what to say this friend. I guess "sorry" is the only thing I can say. I'll recommend Love Dare, but I have a sinking feeling it's too late.
Hi All -
I've worked for this company long enough to know how quickly gossip travels and it's also been a couple months since anyone has asked me "how's Lea", so I thought I'd put it out there and let you all know that yes, Lea and I are getting divorced.
There is no big gossip here, we just got busy with life and quit working at our marriage, we let it get to a point that it could not be salvaged. We did not reach this decision lightly and ultimately decided we needed to do what is best for both of us and our children. Of course this is a difficult time, but we are both fine and working at making this as easy as possible for our kids.
So, please feel free to talk about it, I don't mind talking, I just don't feel like it's necessary to tell everyone when they ask "what's new".