Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Nothing is broken today
It's a very rare day in my life when I feel like all is well with me. When life feels good, and I'm just happy to be alive. Today is one of those days when all feels right in my world...my marriage and my job are in good places. I'm in control of my diet and exercise. I feel like smiling, for no apparent reason.
I'm back on my exercise routine after my crazy trip last week. I've had two good workouts the last two mornings. I even got hit on by a 20-something year old yesterday at the gym (I'm sure he needed glasses). He tried to race me on the elliptical and burn more calories than me. He lost. He talked to me afterwards, something that never happens to me at the gym. Then he asked me out. Seriously. I'm 53, he was maybe 26. I laughed, told him I was old enough to be his mama and that I was married. I told him I was flattered, but no thanks. It was weird, but in a good way.
My marriage has never been better. My husband has been exceptionally attentive and loving, more so recently than he has been in years. Amazingly, I'm not a bad wife after all. I guess I just needed some TLC.
My job, although incredibly busy and stressful these days, is fun and challenging. For the first time in a long time, I feel like a valuable employee and that I'm doing a good job.
I haven't been night eating or binging or even really giving food much thought. I feel in control of my eating and in control of my life. Interesting how those two things seem to go hand and hand.
For the first time in many months, I don't feel broken. I actually feel happy. I almost didn't post anything today, because who wants to hear about a happy person that isn't struggling with some sort of challenge in her life. I realize when I don't have anything negative or bad to say about my life, I usually don't say anything at all.
Funny thing, you'll probably never read a post like this again from me. Because usually by the time I finish writing something like this, the bubble bursts and my real life comes crashing down on my head. At least it's nice while it lasts.