Saturday, April 11, 2009

Saturday's Weighin

I wanted this to be a postive post about my weight loss. But I looked at my weight loss chart at the Weight Watchers web site and got depressed about the whole thing. I mean, seriously, -1.4 average weekly weight loss during the past 60 weeks. It should be better. I know I'm being overly critical of myself, but I should be at goal by now. I can't figure out what's stopping me, other than me. Sometimes I wonder if maybe I don't really want to get to goal.

I hadn't weighed in since March 25, when I had gained 11.8 pounds. This is my loss for the past 18 days, not one week. So don't get too excited (although I did and was dancing around the room at Weight Watchers this morning).

Today's weight: 156.6

Pounds lost in last 18 days: -9.8

Pounds lost in last 424 days or
since 2/12/2008: -82.6

Am I happy? Yes, pretty happy. Could I be happier about my weight? Oh yes! Most definitely. I wish I weighed 135, my goal weight. That's another 21.6 pounds.

I'm happy I didn't go crazy while eating out and ordering room service. I'm a closet over eater and room service would have been perfect for me to overindulge. I knew I had to weigh in when I got back so that helped to keep me honest. Plus, believe it or not, I actually tracked everything I ate those four days, in the little paper journal. I was usually over 10-14 Points every day, but I still tracked it. That really helped.

Today's Weight Watcher meeting was one of the best I've ever been to, and it seemed to be aimed right towards me. It was a leader I don't usually go to, Janis, but I really like her. Maybe Saturday mornings will be my new meeting time.

Janis said there are three types of dieters:

1. Dietary Restraint - all or nothing. 100% willpower. Perfectionist. Great at losing weight, impossible to maintain weight loss. This is me!!!

2. Dietary Disinhibition - zero willpower. Don't follow anything. Throw out the baby with the bathwater. Can't lose weight. This is me too!!! When I gained my 100 pounds that was exactly me. I didn't even try to restrain myself. Ate whatever the hell I wanted. Gained 100 pounds in a year, after losing a hundred pounds in a year.

3. Flexible Restraint - livable limits. Have a treat now and then. Have willpower but not 100% all the time. No one can live like that and makes it impossible to maintain the weight loss. This is where I want to be. This is what I consider normal people who maintain a normal weight. I think I'm getting a handle on it.

I have a treat now and then, even stuff with sugar in it. At lunch in Miami, the waiter brought me a piece of German Chocolate Cake, compliments of the house (note to self, don't flirt with the waiter). It was really good and I ate three bites of it, then stopped. I offered it to the people with me, but they had already ordered desserts. I felt a tiny bit bad not eating it all, but I told the waiter I was really full (from that shrimp salad with three shrimp in it).

It was a really good Weight Watcher meeting, and I'm so glad I stayed. I always learn something when I stay (so why do I weigh in and then leave so often?). My new goal is to be flexible with myself, not so hard on myself, and to consistently attend meetings.


~ugly girl with a beautiful heart~ said...

Congrats on the loss! Good luck with finding your middle ground, and awesome NSV (the sleeveless top is adorable by the way)!

Ron said...

Congrats on the nice loss!!!

~ugly girl with a beautiful heart~ said...

ps: my average loss/wk is 0.8...your 1.4 is such a better number...

bbubblyb said...

Way to go on the great lose. I do think having the weekly accountability is a good thing, I know I count on TOPS to help keep me straight. Glad you got a good message from the meeting.

I seem to be all 3 of those type dieters at different times. I try my best to stay away from the second one though.

Hope you have a good week. I think -1.4 lbs average over 60 weeks is wonderful, slow and steady is the best way I think.

antgirl said...

Are you at a healthy weight though?

If you can feel balanced and are at a healthy weight, I define that as victory. You certainly look healthy in your pic. :)