Thursday, June 11, 2009

Struggles

There's a theme in weight loss blogland: the harder we struggle, the more difficult our weight loss journey becomes, and the more we fail, the less we post. I'm just as guilty as anyone on this. Lately it's seems harder than normal for me to be in control. I don't know why and even if I did, it wouldn't really matter, it would still be hard.

One of most favorite bloggers, Pamela, disappeared on me for over a week. I read her blog every day so I really missed her. I was thrilled to see she posted last night. Go Pamela!

Now for me, I need to buck up and post every day too, and confess my struggles. Last night was tough for me. I went to bed hungry, starving hungry. I was out of Points for the day but since I weighed in at 158 that morning, and I want to get back to 155 as soon as possible, I refused to eat anything else. I finally fell into a fitful sleep around midnight, tossing and turning.

At 3 a.m. I woke up wide awake and famished. I couldn't go back to sleep. I got up and ate 1/2 of a mini watermelon (2 Points), and a mini bag of Healthy Pop (1 Point). I went back to sleep and got up late for my workout at 6:30 a.m. I only worked out an hour, versus my normal 1 1/2 hours.

So what the heck was that all about? Who gets up at 3 a.m. to eat? That's just wrong on so many levels. I know how to avoid it, and that's to go back to taking sleeping pills (or eat myself into a stupor before bedtime but that's NOT an option). Just over the counter Simply Sleep, but I still don't like taking anything that isn't really necessary. I'll see how it goes tonight. Right now I'm so tired I feel like I could sleep for a week.

If you're reading this and you're a blogger that's really struggling with losing weight, don't stop posting. It's just about the worst thing you can do. I really thing blogging has been a lifesaver for me this time. It keeps me honest if nothing else. Plus reading other people's blogs makes me realize I'm not alone in this. We all are struggling. For some reason, that's comforting to me, to know other people have the same problem I have. I don't always comment on other people's blogs because of time, but I read a lot of them. They are a true blessing.

Biometric Screening
On a brighter note, yesterday I went to the health fair at work, where they did a biometric screening. I hadn't fasted, so no LDL or Triglycerides results, but those numbers are always good for me. It's my blood pressure that I was worried about. I haven't been testing it at home since I stopped taking the medication a few months ago.

Yesterday:
June 10, 2009 - weight 157.8
Glucose 90
Total cholesterol 148
HDL 46
Blood pressure 120/71 <--- not on meds!
Resting heart rate 57

These are my numbers from when I started Weight Watchers. I'd just had a physical which made me realize I was going to die if I didn't do something about my weight.
February 2008 - weight 243
Glucose 97
Total cholesterol 172
HDL 32
LDL 107
Triglycerides 82
Blood pressure 184/110

I was basically a dead woman walking when I weighed 243 in 2008. My blood pressure was this high for at least a week, until I called my doctor and she had me in her office within an hour. She immediately put me on blood pressure medicine (Triamterene). I've been off of it for three months and my blood pressure is great. That thrilled me more than anything. HDL still needs work, but at least it's going in the right direction. It should be over 60.

It still amazes me what losing weight and exercising has done for my health. If everyone did this we might be able to put some of the pharmaceutical companies out of business.

10 comments:

Ron said...

I agree, Posting on my blog is what has helped me get right back on track when I stray. Great stats! Keep it up!!!

bbubblyb said...

I too feel like my internet weight loss buddies are a life line for me. I also think being able to post on my blog is therapeutic. We all do have struggles and I agree that talking about them is key to being able to get right back to doing what we need to so we can stay healthy. Good post Diane. Have you tried the sleepy teas at night? I love the honey vanilla camomile tea with milk, it always makes me feel relaxed and it helps with the night time hunger.

Dreams2009 said...

You are doing really well, Your pic looks great and love the outfit, (pink blouse)!! my weight has been at a standstill for a while it's so hard. I think the blogs help us keep on track :)

big_mummy said...

although i havent got to the point where i am really really struggling yet, i do agree, you see it all the time- people get in a funk and fizzle out, but that lonliness only seems to make them turn to food even more.

You would think that someone could have given us a shake when we first started putting on weight in the first place!

antgirl said...

Blogging does make me feel more accountable. Even though I could lie, there's no point in cheating. That's not helping me or anyone.

Sometimes I get real hungry at night. I eat something healthy then, otherwise I'm up all night with a rumbling tummy. It's annoying.

I usually eat some fruit or veggies as they don't do much damage and keep the hungries at bay until morning.

It doesn't happen too often. Sometimes I think our bodies just need a little more.

~ugly girl with a beautiful heart~ said...

I find that I really don't have a whole lot to say, and I don't want to bore other bloggers with my day to day static. I love reading others' blogs though!

Pamela said...

Thanks for being such a great friend, Diana! I'm sorry you're struggling, too, but it sounds like you're starting to get a handle on it. Watermelon and popcorn were healthy options! (much better than the pizza and ice cream I would have chosen) :o) Congratulations on your test results!!

Rayne said...

You are so write blogging helps and it also helps to have your reader be a listening ear too. U r doing a greta job keep it up Diana!!!

Fatinah said...

I wonder if you're just eating too few points? I know your daily pts are on the low end of the range... do you eat AP points?

One thing I do when I'm out of points and hungry - get out the veggies. None of us are overweight cause we snacked on too much broccoli!! HAHA

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