Friday, January 8, 2010

180.2

Argh! 180.2...really????

What can I say other than I'm a dismal failure at this weight loss stuff. Instead of losing weight this week, the first week of the new year, I gained 3.8 pounds! That's just the weigh in on my home scales, tomorrow at 7am is Weight Watchers. Since I'll actually have clothes on when I weigh in it'll be even more (unless I amputate an arm tonight and trust me, I'm tempted!).

I'm perfect every day, all day until about 11pm. Then it's like I lose my ever-lovin' mind! All sense of what's important to me disappears into thin air. I even hear myself saying that I just don't care damnit! I'm hungry! And then I proceed to stuff my fat little face with an abundance of healthy food.

A banana, broiled chicken, low-fat graham crackers and non-fat milk was my feast last night at 11pm. Not even fun food.

All the self-help books' advice, all the weight loss bloggers' advice, all my own knowledge of overeating and weight loss seems to just evaporate into thin air. I'm majorly frustrated with myself right now.

180.2. Yes, kind of hating myself right now.

16 comments:

Natalia said...

Have you tried being with someone at that time? Like, going out with a friend, or even being on the phone with a friend? It might take your mind off food at that time if you're talking to somebody.

Helen said...

Don't be a hater over those numbers - you are so much more than those numbers! You also know there is something triggering this and you need to get to the bottom of that. I'm hoping you can find your click and get moving. I also find it ironic that I've said many times that you and I must have been related in a former life and now we weigh exactly the same. Exactly. Down to the .2 Wanna race me to 170?

Bowmanh23 said...

I have an issue with late night munchies too. I have decided that when I feel them coming on, I need to go sleep it off. Not sure if that is an option or not.

bbubblyb said...

Diana, we just need to get our butts in bed earlier. I think it's that we are just plain tired.

big_mummy said...

really you just need to go to bed! Since being on this diet I go to bed around 10- any later and i amble into the kitchen with snacking on my mind. try it, for a week?

Melting Candy said...

Attention...please step away form the saw. I repeat please step away from the saw. SAVE AN ARM!!!!

That part really made me laugh. Mostly because I have been there. The key is just reconzing what triggers this for you, and address it.

But guess what.... next week can be a whole other story for ya!

Have a Great Weekend!

Marisa (Loser for Life) said...

Diana, you are FAR from a dismal failure! Hello, look over there--------->>>>>
You have lost weight before and you will do it again. Life gets in the way sometimes, but if you keep trying, it'll all come together for you again. You are only a failure if you give up. And I know you won't so, no worries and no hating! You can do this :)

lindalou said...

OMG...LMAO about amputating an arm. So funny! The late night eating is a killer and I can not seem to let the dog out at night without having a pretzel. Dammit it makes me feel so weak. Tonight I'm not gonna do it...come on girl...don't eat tonight , either...I dare ya!!

Tony the Pink Panda said...

Why are you binging at night? Once you figure out the cause, you can solve the problem.

Anonymous said...

Don't beat yourself up, Diana! Here we're just coming off from the holidays --one has to be nearly super human to not gain during what must be one of the most challenging times of the year in terms of temptation and all the goodies lying around everywhere. It's likely just a bit of lag from all that. So no worries, you'll turn it around -- you will....!

Lisa "One Mom's Weight Loss" said...

Oh my goodness, your speaking my language. I thought I wanted to head out...in the cold..to get a burger at 10pm last night!! Was I hungry? Nooo... It's a process and not an easy one! Good luck :)

Roxie said...

You will figure out both the cause and the solution. Remember, this is a process, a learning process and we are all learning things as we move through. If that doesn't work, go to bed :-) Seriously, I hope you can figure this out and get off your own back.

Carrieheff said...

I find that when I'm hungry later at night I haven't had a big enough dinner. You could add calories to your dinner and probably still be eating less than you dinner + the late night snacking. I also fill up on air popped popcorn about 9:30 or 10 so I'm not hungry later in the night. If you are actually hungry, you need to eat more calories earlier in the evening. You won't lose weight always being hungry, it just doesn't work. You will just feel deprived and binge.

seattlerunnergirl said...

Diana, I'm sorry to hear you're struggling with the nighttime eating - I do, too! I've found a few things help. First, I save calories/points for that time of day so I can have a PLANNED snack and don't feel deprived. Second, I close the kitchen after that snack - wipe it down, turn the lights off, etc. Third, I try to do things that are INCOMPATIBLE with eating - like playing Wii (for me) - anything works, including knitting, drawing, painting your nails, etc. Keep those hands busy w/ something OTHER than food. Finally, how about getting in bed with a good book and refusing to get out when the cravings hit?

Hang in there!

Ida said...

Sounds just like me. I don't think cutting off an arm is the answer. Start with the legs, they are bigger. :) I have actually sat and planned what I am going to eat after hubby goes to bed. Now that is a real problem. If I was drinking booze, I'd say that I am a 100% addict. Food addiction is SOOOOOO much harder to fight.

Kelly! said...

okay this post is hilarious! but you are not a failure! yes you have an issue with late night eating, but look how far you have come! you are bingeing on broiled chicken!! thats a step right there. now you just have to take the next, like everyone else said, figure out a way to avoid it whether its going to bed or being with someone or what not. And i'd also like to add that i appreciate your comment about my friend. its hard focusing on my weightloss when i'm thinking of her. but people like you bring me back thank you :)

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