Wednesday, January 27, 2010

This little piggie went to town

My best friend and I went out tonight to celebrate her birthday with dinner and a movie. I seriously don't know what happened to me, but it was like I checked my brain at the door.

I had the evening planned, exactly what I would eat, where I would eat it, how much and how many Points I would consume. I'd had my normal breakfast and a light lunch. I'd eaten 11 Points so I had plenty left for dinner.

We went to Claim Jumper, my girlfriend's favorite restaurant (and not somewhere I would chose - but it was her birthday - her choice). This is one of those places that serves portions fit for a lumberjack. It's totally ridiculous but that's their trademark, huge, unhealthy, fat laden, high calorie, delicious food.

I looked up the nutritional information and the rotisserie chicken looked like my best choice for 14 Points. I knew it would be half of a chicken, and I would eat half of the half for 7 Points. Then there's the sides, sweet potato without the brown sugar or butter. Roasted vegetables in a ton of oil (no choice here because they're already prepared). I ordered the apple-cinnamon muffin with the intention of taking it home to my husband.

All I can say is I think I went temporarily insane. I ate the entire half chicken, all of the sweet potato which was huge (518 calories!), and I ate the entire muffin. It was gigantic, like three muffins in one and it tasted like coffee cake. The meal came with vegetables roasted in oil, lots of oil. I ate all of them.

After we finished dinner, the waitress brought us TWO giant red velvet cupcakes with at least an inch of frosting, and a lit candle on each one. She said she saw us opening presents so she thought it must be our birthdays.

If you think I turned down a red velvet cupcake you're crazy. I ate it, every last bite. It was on a giant plate covered with little hearts made out of chocolate syrup which I mopped up with the cupcake. Who am I???

It gets even worse. We went to the movie, Leap Year (great movie, loved it!). I bought candy! I never buy candy. It was like I was possessed by a demon. I bought a box of Raisenettes and a box of Milk Duds. My girlfriend couldn't believe I was still hungry, but I didn't feel satisfied. It was so weird. I ate both boxes of candy by myself.

I'm home now and literally feel ill, like I'm going to throw up. It's like there's food stuck in my esophagus. I'm sweating and nauseous and kicking my own butt for being so incredibly stupid. What the hell is wrong with me?


OH MY GOD! I just added up the calories and fat grams for that meal at Claim Jumper (it should be called Heart Attack Central!) and the candy at the movies.

3,935 calories and 78 grams of fat!!!!!!!


Jennifer said...
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Roxie said...

Chances are, you will show a gain from this - just keep doing the next right thing and by this time next week (if not sooner) this will be but a cupcake memory.

What helps me sometimes (always after the fact, unfortunately) is to ask myself if something about the evening made me anxious? Was there something I was wanting/needing (besides the food) that was feeding this well, feeding? Sometimes there is an obvious answer, sometimes not.

Just get back on track and remember, you get to chose the restaurant when it's your birthday :-)

Have a great Thursday!

Anonymous said...

It's now behind you. Let it go. Today is a new day. We all have those moments :(

Hope you enjoyed that cupcake made my mouth water thinking about it :)

Helen said...

Not to be corny Diana but been there, done that, bought the t-shirt before I left. Honestly, all you can do is let it go. The only other choice would be to keep it up and we know you don't want to do that. Just breathe my dear, then let it go.

Anonymous said...

oh well we've all done it . . . today is another day :o) onward and downward.

Jackie Callahan said...

You're going to be OK. I know how much it hurts, but you will pick yourself up and start anew. I liked what Roxie had to say about examining the feelings that were going on under the surface. Restaurants can be a big "button" for me: they are filled with things I "can't" have, which other people, all around me, are having; they are often noisy, so any kind of real intimacy is difficult; and sometimes it's just all the "I'm going to be good" messages I give myself that just make me want to scream. Also, it's not a surprise that you wanted the candy at the movies because the dinner contained enough sugar to set you up for those cravings. But you know know all of that, like someone else said, it's not about the food. I know for me, it sometimes helps to figure out what little Jackie is needing.You are still an inspiration to me, so thank you!

Jack Sh*t, Gettin' Fit said...

I'm the same way, Diana. Head down that slippery slope just a few steps and I'm suddenly on my ass sliding downhill like crazy. All you can do is pick yourself up, dust yourself off and start heading back up the hill.

What a Splurge said...

It's so easy to get into the moment and enjoy all the goodies in the spirit of celebration. I've been doing it a bit myself this week (2 birthdays in the house in the same week - oh dear). I'm back on the straight and narrow before a few days turns into a week which turns into 2 weeks ... you get the idea.

Karen said...


I am so with you in spirit. I could feel your pain (but boy did that sound good). I agree with the poster that said resturants are a big trigger. That is my problem. It's going to be okay. It is over and done with, let it go and move forward.

Take care

Carrieheff said...

We all have nights like that. Too bad you didn't write a letter to yourself last night and tell yourself how horrible you felt. Then, the next time you go out, read it right before you leave, or even take it with you. Sometimes we just need reminding how awful we feel after a night like that. Don't beat yourself up, it's not like you do that all the time. Just be healthy today and for the next few days stay within your points.

~ugly girl with a beautiful heart~ said...

Damn girl!

Okay...time to pick up and move on lady. One calorie laden night does not mean the end!

Pink Panda said...

Like everyone else has said, it happens! Life happens! But, one day ain't gonna ruin everything. What you do the majority of the time is what counts.

bbubblyb said...

I'm with Roxie wondering if you were anxious over something. I know I get that way sometimes and can't seem to get satisfied no matter how much I seem to eat. Just focus on today, right now.

SeattleRunnerGirl said...

I keep reminding myself, when I have moments like that, the the difference between THIS TIME and the many others is that every time I make a mistake, I will recover IMMEDIATELY. I might spend an extra 20 minutes at the gym a few times that week, I might shave off 100-200 calories/day that week. I will NOT go into deprivation mode to punish myself (and restart the same cycle, by the way). I'll just consider it a blip on the radar screen and continue on in the direction I'm heading.

I hope you do, too!

Ida said...

Just think how many times you did that, and didn't even give it a second thought. Now you are so much more aware of what and how you eat. That in it's self is a huge step in the right direction.

Kelly! said...

oh my! Well while it sounds crazy, i think if you didnt crack today it would have just been worse another day. By the way, you are not alone girl, we have ALL done this! Plus you KNOW it was wrong and you feel sick so you're learning a lesson. Don't get discouraged, look at the poem i just posted my Nana sent me, i hope it helps you like it did for me! :D