Monday, February 8, 2010

Guess I'm not normal after all

I had a run-in with that damn cake last night. I know I said I wasn't even interested in it yesterday, but as soon I hit "Publish Post" last night, I thought, cake...yummy. (that's not the cake, but it looked very similar)

I fought the craving until about 11:30pm then thought to hell with it, I'm having a piece of cake.

It's not the chocolate cake I'm crazy about, it's the stupid frosting. It's a vanilla butter-cream recipe I found on FoodNetwork.com (5 stars by about 57 people). It's made with 2 cups of butter, heavy whipping cream, vanilla and powdered sugar. All for just one cake. It was the best frosting I've ever eaten in my life.

The big difference between me last night and me two years ago is that I didn't eat the entire cake. Just one piece. Seriously, in the old days I would eat an entire cake in one sitting. I was kind of sick that way.

I weighed myself this morning. 176.6. Up a couple more pounds. Drat!

I may as well face it, I'm not ever going to be a "normal" person that can have a "bad" food in my house. There is such a thing as a "bad" food. Vanilla butter-cream frosting on any kind of cake is a "bad" food for me. I can't resist it and it's nutritional bad for me.

The rest of the cake has gone to cake heaven, otherwise known as the garbage disposal. I'm referring to the garbage disposal in my kitchen sink, not my stomach.

17 comments:

Carrieheff said...

You know what sucks about people like "us?"
If we were alcoholics, we could rid our house of alcohol. No problem. It would still be difficult, but temptation wouldn't be right in front of us. From what I've read, your husband is like mine in that he doesn't have a weight problem. That makes it virtually impossible to rid the house of "bad stuff" because why should they suffer because "we" have a problem? So, there are times we have to "white knuckle" it through days or nights to just try to avoid what is easily accessible. Sometimes we can do it, other times we can't.
You should be very proud of yourself because you only have one piece of cake today. You can do better tomorrow and get right back on track. If you keep doing that, you will get to your goal weight. There's no question about it.

Rettakat said...

"I fought the craving until about 11:30pm then thought...."

Isn't that what gets us?? Our thoughts. Our own thoughts trip us up.

I agree with Carrieheff... you have come a long way from eating the whole cake, to stopping at one piece, then holding a Cake funeral! That is progress to feel proud about.

Loretta
=^..^=

Roxie said...

Cake funeral! Love that comment.

I am not normal and I never will be. When I start to think I am, this affliction/addiction/malady charges right back in. So I've had to make adjustments - I don't bake and I can't even bring stuff like that into the house. I have to manage this at that level because I can't manage it at the pantry level. If it's in the pantry, it's coming to the binge party.

I wish it weren't true, but for me, it is.

Deniz said...

You threw the cake, and it's tempting frosting, away? Diana, honey, you are doing great. Really great!

That's such a strong thing to do - so many of us would have given in to the 'oh dammit, I've been bad so may as well go the whole hog' thoughts...

I know what you mean about having 'bad stuff' in the house. For me the irresistible food is peanut butter, so it stays out of my cupboards!

Kyle Gershman said...

We all have to do what we have to do and that also means accepting our limitations. I think that it is actually very empowering to know thyself and act accordingly. Perhaps it is really the most normal thing to do. Wait..actually I think it is extraordinary!

Three cheers for being better than normal!

Linda said...

Sounds normal to me. Real buttercream frosting is way too tempting to me too. I either eat it or throw it out. The second part is the best option! Way to go!

lindalou said...

Yay for you for finally throwing it out!! I've thrown many a cake away when I see my family losing interest in it, but I'm still slivering away. Tomorrow is a brand new day and none of us could have even resisted that icing as well as you did , many would have eaten the entire cake. (ME).

Patsy said...

I dunno... One slice of cake sounds pretty 'normal' to me and it's what I aspire to! :o)

Carlos said...

i so would have eaten the whole thing...

Helen said...

OK - FOOD IS NOT BAD. Can our reaction to it be bad? Yes. Can some of it be less healthy? Yes. Can some of it trigger other cravings? Yes again. But food is not bad. It's just carbs, fat, and protein that is fuel for our bodies. Now, having said that, this is what I do with food that triggers me. If the hubby wants it in the house (maeaning I can't throw it out), I tell him that I have no self control around it and that he needs to help me be accountable to not touching it. That works pretty well because if I even took one sliver he'd call me on it. Even the skinniest folks sometimes overeat you know. Food isn't bad and neither are you Diana.

antgirl said...

One piece vs whole cake is a victory. A big one. You found moderation.

Honest, I'd not be able to resist a cake that looks like that either. One piece once in awhile is not going to hold you back. It may delay, but it won't stop you.

You need a more glass half full perspective on this. One piece of cake, just one, is an accomplishment for you. :)

clickmom said...

Last night I had to have a tater tot funeral when my kids didn't finish them and I started to pick. There are many things I can't keep in the house. Anything you can eat straight out of the freezer for one, and dried fruit is another.

Ida said...

Good job, Diana. You have come a long way from eating the whole cake to being able to throw it down the garbage disposal. Yea you!!!

spunkysuzi said...

I think you handled that situation well!!
I have to admit i just can't seem to do moderation, i need to limit the junk that comes into my house. I would however, love to be able to eat things in moderation one day.

Ron said...

I have been accused of having ownly sticks and twigs in my house to eat..... but reality is... i have sticks and twigs in my house.
Compared to what my friends and family have in their houses I guess you could say it's true... but it has to be this way. I struggle enough just by going out to eat 2-3 times a week, just think what I would weigh if I had normal food in the house. If you call what they all eat "normal"

Foodie Girl said...

I really appreciate the fact that you decided to weigh yourself, regardless of what you may have done wrong. As I read blogs, many people decide not to weigh in because they did not have a good week. Who cares? Let's be honest. I am glad you are one of those honest people!

Mama Bear June said...

Keepin it real and getting rid of temptation. Great job!