This blog is about me. It was orignally about my struggles with weight loss, but it has become much more. It's about my battle with cancer, the end of a 25-year marriage, a new love and yes, it's still about trying to lose weight and get healthy. It's really a journey of my life.
A return to sanity
I'm starting to wonder if I'll ever make peace with food. Today was suppose to be day number four of eating 1200 calories. My average calories for the previous three days was 1294 a day, not quite my 1200 goal.
My energy level was zero when the alarm went off at 4:45 a.m. today, my normal time to get up and head out to the gym before work. This morning I just couldn't do it. I was so tired that I shut off the alarm and went back to sleep.
When I finally woke up at 7:30 a.m. my husband had already left for work. I still felt like I couldn't get out of bed. I decided to stay home from work. I was so tired that even getting ready for work sounded like more than I could do. After two days back from a 25-day vacation I took a day off. I couldn't help it. My body and mind weren't cooperating.
I ate a healthy breakfast and then went right back to bed. I didn't get up until 11 a.m. When I finally got up I was still exhausted. I felt like I couldn't move.
I realized that although the 1200 calories a day plan works for a lot of people for quick weight loss, it's just not right for me. I'm not criticizing the plan all. I'm just not willing to feel extremely hungry, tired and weak all the time. To be really honest, if I had to live like this the rest of my life I think I'd rather not live.
I need to do something since I really need to lose a minimum of 25 pounds (preferrably 35). The only logical thing is to go back to the Weight Watcher plan and follow it faithfully.
I still think it's the best weight loss plan out there. I've been reading the Getting Started book for the new plan (again).
Just for fun I'm still going to track my calories and Points for the rest of the month. I didn't track anything today because honestly, I was just to tired and I really didn't care about much of anything. I ate more than 1200 calories and I feel much better tonight. I'm not seeing stars when I stand up to quickly.
I want to keep my calories under 1500. If I track the Points and calories for a month, I can get a good idea of how the zero Point fruits are affecting my daily calorie count. Once I get an idea of how many fruits I can eat and still stay under 1500 calories, I'll keep that as a limit for myself.
Just stopping in with a quick update. I'm down a few pounds from a couple months ago, 14.4 to be exact. I just updated my profile from 227.0 to 212.6.
The weight is coming off slowly. Some weeks I've had a .2 loss, then a couple weeks ago a 4.4 pound loss. It varies a lot, but on the .2 loss weigh-ins it's really a miracle I didn't gain weight.
Exercise: I'm back at the gym and walking a lot, aiming for the 10,000 steps a day.
Weight loss plan: I'm attending Weight Watcher meetings with my girlfriend and am sort of following the plan, but actually using My Fitness Pal to track my food. I really don't like the new Weight Watcher plan. I eat mostly what they say to eat, but I track all my calories and nutrients using myfitnesspal, which I highly recommend.
I paid the yearly fee for my fitness pal of $49.95 so I could see the nutrients I'm consuming. It was really eye opening to see how much sugar I was getting from fruit, and the massive amount of prote…
I can't believe I forgot to post anything yesterday. I thought about it, but then quickly forgot. It's funny how blogging was a natural part of my every day life, and now I simple forget about it. That is going to change this year!
My diet is going okay, not so much on the exercise. In fact, the diet isn't exactly perfect either. I forgot my lunch yesterday and went to Subway for a turkey sub. I didn't check the points first and was shocked to see it was 8 Smart Points. So many things have changed with Weight Watchers recently. I knew the old Point system really well and could rattle off the Points for most food items I eat. Not anymore! It's very different now.
The gym is on the agenda for tonight. I've committed to go with my boyfriend so I can't disappoint him. I'm aiming for a minimum of three days a week gym and three days a week walking at lunch. We'll see how successful I've been by Friday.
Since I'm about ready to head out the door …
Okay, I got that out of the way. Enough said about that number. I haven't even figured out how much I gained or how much I want to lose. I was 152 pounds in the fall of 2009. 152 pounds on my 5'6 frame isn't too bad. It's not skinny, but it's a healthy weight for me.
No regrets about my weight now, since it's pointless to look back at what happened and what went wrong. No self-flagellation today, I've done enough of that already during 2015. The good news, if I try to be positive, is that I only gained 6.8 pounds since April. Anyway, it is what it is, but I'm going to fix it.
I received an Apple watch for Christmas, which I love! The only feature that's not working is syncing with the Weight Watcher app. Weight Watchers told me "we do not have expertise or concern for Apple products". That was during a chat with Weight Watchers' online help. From someone named Sermiento, …