Monday, January 24, 2011

Déjà vu...January of last year...

I'm working from home today and just pulled a notebook out of my bookshelf to use for writing down some notes. I flipped it open and there, dated January 24, 2010, I had written the following:

Day 1 - January 24, 2010 - 179.0!

* Do NOT screw up today. I work out so hard, I don't want to waste all that work for nothing. Remember, food is not comfort!

This notebook actually has the first date in it of April 8, 2005. I weighed 220 pounds. It's kind of sad to go back and look at five years of me trying to lose weight, succeeding, then failing, over and over again. I feel sorry for this woman.

I really feel like I'm living that movie, Groundhog Day.

8 comments:

Dani- danielleislosingit said...

I know exactly how you feel. I have been there so many times. Its so frustrating to realize exactly how long you've failed at something. I have been saying I'm going to lose weight for five years now. Have I? Here and there. But ultimately no.

Keep at it.

Mz_ Piggie said...

I'm in the same boat, but you...We, are trying and that counts for something.

Heather said...

I wonder how much you would weigh if you hadn't been trying? 250? I mean... for myself... I know that when I don't diet, I gain on average 25 pounds a year... stay the course, my friend!

Joy said...

I've been there before. What I've realized though is that it takes a lot of courage to get up and try again. Especially when you have to get passed all those depressed feelings about where you could be if you'd just stayed on track to begin with. Most people just throw in the towel but you are getting out there and trying again. That speaks volumes.

Anonymous said...

Okay so it been six years and really you have trended down so thats good somtimes making healthy choices and chages is a gradual thing. I have been working on this since 1999! I started at 240 in 1999 and was quick to 190 in about 5 months then slacked off and was up to 220 by Jan 2000 than back down to 200 by March and then let it slowly slide back to 240 in 2003 then on the wagon again and back to 200 by June 03 then slowly back up to 240 by Jan and so on and so forth up 20 down 20 up 30 down etc etc etc.... but I keept getting back on the horse working out keeping the cals low and it brings me to today. Currently I am 220 and on my way down and I think I might have made the changes I need to succeed this time. I am eating healthier this time and exercizing more and a complete body exercise this time and taking it off more slowly. I have a much more positive attitude I am not dieting I am changing my lifestyle changing the way I eat. I almost never feel hungry and the weight is still coming off. I am the happiest I have been in 20 years! Keep on keeping on! You CAN DO IT! I feel if I had stopped trying I would be like 350 pounds so just the fact that I keept trying means I was still closer to my goal all the time even during my failures!

Helen said...

Seriously Diana, I JUST said to Mr. Helen on Sunday night: "I may not be where I want to be but I refuse to sit down and do nothing and end up 300 pounds."

It's deja vu all over again baby!

Anonymous said...

@ Helen here here, I've been watching that show HEAVY on A&E and I'll never give up, even if I have to pad-lock the fridge...

Ida said...

We are all in that same boat. We try and try and make a little headway, then we slip and fall and have to start all over again. It's our life, and we will be doing this until the day we die. But, it is better to try and try and try, than to sit down and weigh 200-250-300 lbs. That makes it all worth it. Our life is lived in the trying, so never give up!

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