Wednesday, April 3, 2013

Taking my good health for granted

Right now, I'm playing the waiting game. Waiting to hear if I have endometrial cancer. I keep telling myself I'm sure I don't have cancer. I don't "feel" like I have cancer. Yet there's that little voice in my head that keeps reviewing the statistics. Statistically, the odds are stacked against me.

Ive been thinking about the obesity factor. Obesity greater than 50 pounds over ideal body weight is 10 times more likely to develop endometrial cancer. I don't think I've ever heard this statistic before. If I had, would it have made a difference in my weight? Sadly, probably not. Because like most people, I thought I was invincible. I've always been blessed with good health. I thought that it would last forever. I was wrong.

Out of the higher risk factors for endometrial cancer, I have four of them: obesity, postmenopausal, lack of children and hypertension. I appear to be a textbook case for having endometrial cancer. Yet I still think this can't happen to me. I'm too healthy, things like this just don't happen to me, then I have the foot-stomping reaction...this just can't happen to me! Not now! I have too much to deal with, I can't take this on too! Honestly, God, what about that deal we have, where you will NOT give me more than I can handle? Then I calm down and tell myself I can handle whatever is thrown my way. My sister's stroke, my divorce, potential bankruptcy, all seems to fit together. I got the bundle package of bad stuff that can happen to a person. I can only go up from here.

At Significantly Higher Risk for Endometrial Cancer (from
  1. Obesity greater than 50 pounds (23 kg) over ideal body weight (10 times as likely).
  2. Postmenopausal women.
  3. Menopause after age 52 (2.4 times as likely).
  4. Lack of children (twice as likely).
  5. Women with hypertension (twice as likely).
  6. Diabetics (2.8 times).
  7. Women who do not ovulate, those with polycystic ovaries (Stein-Leventhal syndrome).
  8. Estrogen replacement therapy without supplemental progesterone (seven times as likely).
  9. History of pelvic radiation therapy (eight times).
Another sad fact for the obese woman, we can't even have laparscopic surgery if there's cancer, we have to have the old fashioned, slice open the abdomen surgery:

Most gynecologic oncologists recommend a midline abdominal incision to gain access to the upper abdomen. However, laparoscopic surgery (minimal invasive surgery) including a hysterectomy, removal of both tubes and ovaries, removal of the pelvic and para-aortic lymph nodes can be performed in non-obese women, allowing a quicker release from the hospital, a quicker recovery, and where applicable, an earlier return to work. Complications of surgery include infection, bleeding and injury to the bladder, rectum or ureter causing a leak (rare). There may also be blood clots in the legs, occasionally dislodging and traveling to the lungs (pulmonary embolism).

I should get the results of the biopsy today. My doctor told me I would hear from her in a day or two. The biopsy was on Monday. Now I just have to wait.

I've changed my diet back to eating healthier and eating less. I haven't gone to the gym because I feel like my insides are going to fall out. I have intermittent stabbing pains that take my breath away. I don't have them all the time, sometimes I'll even go fifteen minutes without anything. I just don't have the desire to exercise right now. Funny how pain does that to a person.

My gym membership expires this month. I think that's sort of funny. Perfect timing since I won't be able to go for a few weeks if I have a regular hysterectomy. Or several weeks if the gynecologic oncologist performs the hysterectomy. I'm pretty sure I'm just going to renew my membership anyway, regardless of cancer or no cancer. As soon as I'm feeling better, I want to get back exercising.

I'll post as soon as I get the results of my biopsy. Maybe a cancer scare is just what I needed to wake up and take control of my health. It certainly has made me aware of what's important and just how much I love life.


Diandra said...

All these statistics need to be put in perspective. Considering all facts, only one in forty women develops endometrial cancer. And that includes all those "high-risk" cases. Of course we will only know once your results are back, but I think you have nothing too big to worry about. Just don't let these things drag you down. And stop reading all those things on the internet! (I know what that's like - when I started working as a medical translator and had to do all the research, I turned slightly hypochondric.)

Lyn said...

Praying for you Diana.

B said...

Crossing fingers for you that all is well & NO cancer! Someone I work with was diagnosed with endometrial cancer a few months ago. It hadn't spread, she had a full hysterectomy and rested for a few weeks, and all is well with her now.

Roxie said...

thinking of you.

Carrieheff said...

Ooohh one of the worst things you can do is look up all the "what ifs" on the internet. It can be a scary place and there ain't a damn thing you can do about it until you get the results from the doctor. I really pray you are right and you don't have cancer. You don't need this now or ever. I will continue to pray for you and hope for the best!

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Anonymous said...

Diana, please just pray about this and turn it over to God. He knows your plate is full. Tell him to take care of it and try to do somethings that help u relax. will be praying for you.

June said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you, Diana.

Jessica said...

I hope for you that you don't have cancer. Even if you do, with todays technology most of people get out of it and continue healthy living. I cross my fingers for you.