Dancing through the fire

Yes, that is a line from Katy Perry's song, Roar. It's one of my favorite new workout songs. Thanks a lot Ms. Miley for ruining Blurred Lines for me. Every time I hear it - I now think of herand all the press coverage and the endless videos on the news of your bump and grind routine. That image is forever burned in my head (ugh!).

So how is my life right now? I can honestly say, at this moment in time, today, all is good. I'm happy. All the junk is still in my life, the pending divorce trial (in November) the criminal trial against my husband (in October), the 50% chance that my rare and aggressive cancer will come back, my sister never recovered any mobility from after her stroke, my job is stressful, and I'm still fat. All the usual stuff that everyone has in their day to day life (okay, I admit, perhaps my is a little more drama filled than most).

Even with everything going on, I'm a pretty happy lady these days. I got back to the gym this week and stopped taking Ambien. I think Ambien makes me a little crazy and prone to anxiety attacks--so I quit taking it totally.

My weight has been stable at 193 for weeks, since post-surgery. My night-time eating has stopped completely. I haven't had a binge in months. I credit this to my roommate who swears that eating after 6pm makes a person fat. I don't necessarily agree with that logic, however, it has definitely stopped me from gaining weight.

I have to listen to some of the stuff he says since he's 55 years old, six feet tall and maintains a constant weight of 160 (he's been that weight for years). He once weighed 225, but he could also bench press his own weight so he wasn't really what you could call fat. Fortunately for me, he's a bit of a health nut, with his only weakness being for Fig Newmans and dark chocolate. Well, and and occasionally an apple fritter pastry. He's usually more into lots of veggies and chicken or fish. I'm good with that too so it's working out nicely on the eating front.

I'm posting this now, even though I have lots more I want to say here, I'm out of time. At work. Lunch time. Back to work now. I'm back to reading blogs and hope to get back to regularly posting again.

Comments

Sarah G said…
So glad to hear you're happy Diana. You deserve to be!! ((hugs))
PJ Geek said…
I've been thinking of you and hoping you are well..welcome back
Lyn said…
So glad to read an update! You sound good. :)
Lynn said…
Glad to see your post! I was a tad worried about you! Seems like you are a bit better. Please continue to take care of yourself.
ANGEL ABBY said…
Diana
I am so glad to see you posted. Been praying for you.
Diandra said…
Great to hear from you! And good thing you are not letting the stuff drag you down.
Ida said…
SO glad you are back. I have wondered about you many times over the past couple of months. Your life is not filled with more drama than mine, different, but still drama is drama. I am so glad that things are going well for you at this moment in time. Hugs and prayers coming your way.
Carrieheff said…
Seriously you need to keep us updated on you. I was really getting worried! Happy about the roommate though ;-)
Betsey C. said…
So good to read a post from you. It sounds like you are doing very well and enjoying yourself. Take good care!
Deniz said…
Hi Diana

Ooooh, it's so, so good to see you back. And you're still fighting and staying positive, whatever life dishes out to you!

You really are one amazing lady, and a serious inspiration - don't ever forget that.

Zen hugs from the UK
Deniz
Grace said…
Just a quick comment to say I really am enjoying your site, I have visited since last week and read some quality article. Thank You Xox
Ben said…
Sometimes its nice to get burnt by the fire. Gives you a little kick up the ass to carry on. x
Anonymous said…
good to read you're still hanging in there. keep it up!
Grace said…
Hi there, Diana
Thanks so much for your comment on my post. Over the past 18 months, I seriously considered deleting the blog altogether. Then I started to realize it provided me good perspective on how far I have come. So I just let it sit. Then I started to miss writing. Don't know how often I will post, but it feels good to be back.

I hadn't been keeping up with blogs much, so was shocked to see all the crap you were and are going through right now. You are a hell of a strong woman! I would love to get together sometime to maybe have a glass of wine and just catch up. Love ya, Grace
Anonymous said…
So glad you're ok Diana! Sounds like you've got a lot of stress but I have faith you can handle it.

Stay well!
Anonymous said…
I'm guessing your roommate is your friend you have mentioned a couple of times in the past! I'm happy for you.
Anonymous said…
You're a strong person. It takes one to know one. :)

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