Sunday, January 10, 2016

You can't outrun your fork

Update: After I wrote this post, I very reluctantly decided it was time to change my profile picture. The old picture was when I weighed 152 and was taken six years ago (I was 54). I haven't aged well, and the additional 70 pounds I gained haven't been kind to me. It's a start to facing my reality and doing something about it. 

Every day is a struggle for me to stay on a healthy path. Some days I'm successful, other days I'm a failure, and some days are a little of both.

Yesterday was a mixture of success and failure. Success on my eating, well, sort of a success. I didn't follow the Weight Watcher plan exactly, and I only ate 20 of my 30 Smart Points. What I ate was very healthy, but I was super busy and didn't make time to eat (this almost never happens). I was starving at 10 p.m., but I went to bed hungry. So I wasn't perfectly on plan, but I tried.

I didn't make it to the gym, I didn't walk outside like I had planned to do (and it was a gorgeous day), and I didn't even come near to making my 10,000 steps. I did go to the mall because I had to get my hair done. I did some shopping, and I walked in the mall for what felt like miles, but according to my Apple watch, I only got in 5,000 steps. So exercise was a big fail.

I still call it a good day. At least I made an effort to eat right, and if I had to chose eat right or exercise, I'll take eat right. My old Weight Watcher leader used to always say "you can't outrun your fork". Meaning if you don't cut back on the eating, it's unlikely that you can exercise enough to burn off all those extra calories. This is very true. In the past I could spent two hours at the gym, then eat too much and gain weight. Cutting back on food intake is number one to losing weight. Exercise is still important, but it takes a back seat to my eating.

The plan for today is head outside and get in a good, brisk walk this morning. Of course, that's dependent on getting my lazy kitty off my recliner footrest. That's her grumpy cat face because I woke her up to take this picture.

Missy, my only kitty, enjoying a nap.
 (until I poked her and told her to wake up for a picture)

For those of you that noticed, yes, that is my Christmas tree in the background. I usually take it down the day after Christmas, but I put it up two days before Christmas so I've been reluctant to take it down. Today is the day, it's coming down.

Today is also going to be a fantastic day of healthy eating and exercise!

Thursday, January 7, 2016

Confession is good for the soul

I forgot to post yesterday. This is a really hard habit to get back into. Just like the gym. Just like remembering I have to track every bite of food I eat. Just like walking shouldn't be a leisure activity, but I need to sweat. Just like I can't eat every time I feel a hunger pang.

This is not easy. Of course, if it was easy there wouldn't be any overweight people (how many times have we heard that one?). Losing weight is hard work, and keeping it off is even harder. 

I have a confession to make that I haven't told anyone, except my boyfriend. I feel guilty about this, but here it goes. I have a very good friend, who is also my ex-sister-in-law. She is one of my dearest friends, although we don't see each other as often as we used to. She was about 130 pounds overweight. In April last year she had a vertical sleeve gastrectomy (bariatric surgery). In the first six weeks she lost 40 pounds. She has since lost a total of 120 pounds, which I found out from her husband. I'm very happy for her, because I know how important this was to her. I'm also insanely jealous and envious of her success.

I hate myself for feeling like this, and for trying to avoid her. She's texted a few times to meet for coffee (she doesn't really eat anymore), and I made excuses to not see her. She texted me two night's ago asking for my vet's name because she had a very sick kitty, and my vet is open until 10pm. I ended up calling her and we talked for an hour about everything. I admitted to her I was jealous, and she was so sweet to me. She understood. We're meeting for coffee next week and I know nothing will be different between us. She's still my good friend, just a skinnier version. 

I would love to have this surgery. I know my friend was miserable for the first month and could barely swallow the smallest bites of food without them getting stuck in her esophagus. She said she feels great now. She still barely eats because she can't eat much without getting sick. She has to drink the bariatric shakes to get enough nutrition and take supplements - for the rest of her life. She's still losing weight, but not as quickly now. She wants to lose a little more weight, but she wouldn't say how much. 

I know weight loss surgery is not an easy fix. There's still a lot of mental issues that need to be dealt with. If my friend is going to therapy, she hasn't mentioned it. She's one of the sweetest, most loving people I know. I also know no one gains 130+ pounds unless there's something else going on. I know her marriage is difficult. She's married to my ex-husband's brother. Although he's a nicer version, he still has some serious issues.   

If I hadn't had Uterine Leiomyosarcoma (cancer) a couple years ago, I'd seriously consider this surgery. At least, I think I'd consider it. My boyfriend thinks it would be a huge mistake to mess with my body chemistry after I had the surgery to remove the cancer. Plus the fact that the cancer has a 50% chance of coming back. Having voluntary invasive surgery just seems like I'd be asking for trouble. Plus the long-term effects of the surgery aren't something I want to deal with (possible malnutrition).

I'm not having the surgery, but I can't help the feelings I'm having about my friend's rapid weight loss. I wish I could let go of the these feelings, but I  guess I'll just have to deal with them as I continue to do my best to lose weight the old fashioned way (called Weight and exercise). 

Tuesday, January 5, 2016

Best diets for 2016

I can't believe I forgot to post anything yesterday. I thought about it, but then quickly forgot. It's funny how blogging was a natural part of my every day life, and now I simple forget about it. That is going to change this year!

My diet is going okay, not so much on the exercise. In fact, the diet isn't exactly perfect either. I forgot my lunch yesterday and went to Subway for a turkey sub. I didn't check the points first and was shocked to see it was 8 Smart Points. So many things have changed with Weight Watchers recently. I knew the old Point system really well and could rattle off the Points for most food items I eat. Not anymore! It's very different now.

The gym is on the agenda for tonight. I've committed to go with my boyfriend so I can't disappoint him. I'm aiming for a minimum of three days a week gym and three days a week walking at lunch. We'll see how successful I've been by Friday. 

Since I'm about ready to head out the door for work, this post is going to be a short one. One thing I'm going to check out tonight is this article, Best Diets U.S. News 2016. I'm thinking about trying something different than Weight Watchers. Sometimes I just need a new, shiny toy to get started. I'm going to read the article tonight and post my thoughts tomorrow. 

Happy Tuesday everyone!

Sunday, January 3, 2016

Lazy Sunday

I may have gotten myself into a pickle with this HOT Chocolate 5k race in March. I thought I was doing pretty good with my walking. I walk at least days a week during my lunch hour. I knew I wasn't really pushing myself very hard, mainly because I'm lazy and it's more about getting a little fresh air and chatting with a girlfriend from work (more chatting than power walking). Yesterday I completed a 3.18 mile outdoor walk and here are my results:

Yikes! There's a minimum of a 15-minute mile walk to even be in this "race". It's called a race, but I have no intention of actually racing anyone. I just want to complete it in 45 minutes. As you can see, my current speed is a 19:29 minute mile.

In addition, my walk at work isn't very hilly, here's the elevation for the HOT Chocolate race. It's not exactly flat in downtown Seattle. I have a lot of work to do to get my speed up. Losing weight will definitely help too.

During my walk yesterday I could see the beautiful Mt. Rainier. It was only 33 degrees, but blue skies and sunshine. It felt so good to be outside, I love outdoor activity versus the gym.

When I got home I had a smoothie with fresh strawberries, spinach, a small banana and Siggi's yogurt, with a bunch of ice and water. I love Siggi's yogurt. It only has 11 grams of sugar and 14 grams of protein.

Today is an outdoor walk even though it's spitting snow and is only 29 degrees. I have to get an oil changed for my car, and I'm going to take that time to walk around the neighborhood. Maybe the gym too if I'm up to it. Although that doesn't sound very appealing right now. 

It's noon and I'm just now getting going. I'm definitely having a lazy Sunday!

Saturday, January 2, 2016

High hopes for 2016

My current weight:

Start weight Jan. 1, 2016 --- 226.8

Okay, I got that out of the way. Enough said about that number. I haven't even figured out how much I gained or how much I want to lose. I was 152 pounds in the fall of 2009. 152 pounds on my 5'6 frame isn't too bad. It's not skinny, but it's a healthy weight for me.

No regrets about my weight now, since it's pointless to look back at what happened and what went wrong. No self-flagellation today, I've done enough of that already during 2015. The good news, if I try to be positive, is that I only gained 6.8 pounds since April. Anyway, it is what it is, but I'm going to fix it.

Apple Watch
I received an Apple watch for Christmas, which I love! The only feature that's not working is syncing with the Weight Watcher app. Weight Watchers told me "we do not have expertise or concern for Apple products". That was during a chat with Weight Watchers' online help. From someone named Sermiento, who is probably in a foreign country and didn't have a good grasp of the English language. It was kind of funny. I just told them thanks and Happy New Year. According to Apple, they're working on a fix with Weight Watchers. Regardless, I love this watch. So far I'm very impressed. I love the Activity app, and the Health app, and it's all on my iPhone. It's a very cool new toy and helps motivate me. I need all the help I can get!

HOT Chocolate 5k - Seattle - March 6, 2016
I signed up for the HOT Chocolate 5k race in Seattle for March 6th. I was actually pressured into this by my coworkers. Several of them signed up and had the crazy idea this would be a breeze for me because I often walk during my lunch hour at work. However, this requires a minimum time of a 15-minute mile. I'm a lazy walker and do more of a 17-minute mile. I'm going to need to up my speed before March 7. Lots of gym workouts and faster lunch-hour walks in my future Now that I've paid $52.44 to do this thing with my team (including my cool new manager that's a fitness nut), I really can't get out of it, which is a good thing (I think).

Yummy spinach / vegetable / fruit smoothies
I love this little blender. It's amazing! It will pulverize anything. I've been having a smoothie for breakfast (limited to 6 Smart Points) to make sure I get in vegetables and fruits, along with some protein every morning. I don't know if I'm tricking myself into thinking this makes me feel better, but whatever it is, it seems to be working.

Magic Bullet NutriBullet Pro 900 Series Blender/Mixer System

Online Only

This is new for me, doing Weight Watchers on-line only versus meetings. I was going to meetings in March and April, but I had to start taking night classes for my job. That made it almost impossible to go to my favorite meeting with my favorite leader. However, even when I had the opportunity to go, I'd find reasons not to. I love their online app and I really believe in the science of their plan.

Although I'm not thrilled about Oprah buying $42 million dollars of their stock and doubling her money in one day when it was announced she was investing in them and becoming their spokesperson. Nothing against Oprah, I'm sure she's a nice person, but this is just wrong. Regardless, I still think they have a good plan. Most of their name brand food is disgusting, but the plan is solid, and it's always worked for me when I followed it.

Commitment to blogging

I'll be posting daily on this blog. Even if it's just a few words with a quick update. This is a commitment to myself to stay focused. It'll help hold myself accountable to me. At the start of 2017 I want to be able to look back on this blog and be happy with myself.

See you tomorrow!