Saturday, July 8, 2017

AHA - Aware Halt Action

Weight this morning:  171.6 
Weight Jan. 1, 2017:  222.0
Weight lost this year: 50.4
Goal: 155

I listen to a lot of weight loss podcasts, which have really helped me during the past six months. There's a lot of very helpful advice from people that suffer from disordered eating. Hearing their ideas and suggestions on how to beat this thing has been a lifesaver for me. It's good to know I'm not alone and hear from people who have gone through years of yo-yo dieting, just like me, but have figured out how to maintain their weight loss. I have finally realized that maintenance is the key to this whole thing. I've lost weight many times, but maintaining my weight loss has been unachievable. Until now. I plan on changing that pattern this time.

A new podcast I just discovered is Tips of the Scale. Episode 102: Sarah Moores on Flexing Motivation Muscle for New Strength was very helpful. 

One thing Sarah talkes about is how to stop binge eating. I've read a lot of books on binge eating, and I haven't had a true binge in the last six months, but I know I have a tendency to binge when life gets rough. And let's face it, life always gets rough. The smallest thing can seem monumental to me and drive me to overeat. I've been working on it, but I know my next binge could be just around the corner. 

Sarah talks about AHA when you feel a binge coming on. It's a simple concept and similar to other things I've heard used for addictions (H.A.L.T.), but I really like the AHA concept.

A ---> Be Aware of what you're doing. Be conscious and in the moment.
H ---> Halt! Stop what you're doing. Just take a moment, gather your thoughts, and stop.
A ---> Take Action. Do something different. Anything different. Go for a walk, get busy with your hands so you can't eat. A favorite thing I do is crafts. You can't stuff your face if you're creating a beautiful card. You don't want Cheetos dust on your piece of artwork (okay, I haven't had Cheetos in my house for years, it's just an example).

This is now stuck in my head, which is a good thing. I'm already challenging myself to continue to be binge free. If it starts to happen, I'll remember AHA. I think I've got this.

I leave with one of my favorite Bob Newhart skits. This one cracks me up every time.

Bob Newhart - Stop it

Monday, July 3, 2017

Too tired to eat

Have you ever been so completely wiped out, exhausted beyond words that you actually weren't hungry? Keep in mind, I'm a recovering binge eater so I'm not your normal person that gets too tired to eat. I know people like that exist, I'm just not one of them.

I had today off from work, a vacation day since tomorrow is July 4th it made sense to make it a long weekend (I have Wednesday off too). My plans were simple, rent a 15-foot U-Haul, fill it with the last of my ex-husband's garbage, drive to the landfill, empty the U-Haul, then drive back home to clean out the UHaul, and return it to the U-Haul office.

Oh my lord, that was quite a task! I loaded 2,200 pounds of junk into the U-Haul, and then unloaded the 2,200 pounds of junk into the landfill. It was worth every penny of the $101 U-Haul rental and the $125 landfill dumping fee. Even though it was a ton of work (I could barely lift some of the boxes), it was the most lethargic thing I've done in a long time, throwing each piece of junk onto the cement floor of the landfill building and watching his possessions smash into pieces. I've been divorced almost four years and it was past due to get rid of his junk. I'm not sure I ever mentioned this, but he was a hoarder. He never threw anything away. He even took things I threw away out of the trash bin. It was crazy!

The entire process took me eight hours. According to my Apple watch, I completed the following:

1,369 Active calories burned
236 Exercise minutes
16,279 Steps

I didn't go to the gym this morning since I knew I'd need every ounce of energy to get through this day. There was a lot of anger at the beginning that he'd left me with such a huge mess. But in the end, it was so rewarding. I keep going outside and looking at the space on the side of the house where all his stuff was stored. It looks wonderful, and I got rid of all that stuff all by myself. Whew! A huge relief.

You should have seen me driving that 15-foot U-Haul, all by myself. Plus, when I was coming home from the landfill, I was in rush hour traffic. I did just fine, I didn't kill anyone or even hit anyone's car. It was a bit nerve-racking driving that huge vehicle, but it's good to know that this almost 62-year old woman still has it. I felt like a professional truck driver.

Now about dinner. I'm still too tired to eat, but I know I really have to eat something. It would be stupid not to eat after all that exercise. I wish I had a maid, or that my boyfriend was home to cook for me, but he's working late tonight. I'll find something to nourish this poor, old and rapidly becoming sore, body.

Saturday, July 1, 2017

July 1, 2017 - I'm still here!

I'm doing well these days. Life isn't perfect by any means, but I'm pretty happy. I'm over four years cancer free, I'm still madly in love with my boyfriend, and I still have a job (33 years with the same company), although l'm really looking forward to retirement in 2020. I feel great, and my health has drastically improved over the past six months, since I've lost 47 pounds and exercise on a regular basis. It's incredible how losing weight and exercising impacts your life for the better.

I'm 20 pounds from my goal weight of 155 pounds. My goal weight is higher than my past goal weight, but I'm older and hopefully a little more wiser these days. At 5' 6" I've always aimed for a 135-pound goal. Since I'm almost 62, every 10-pound loss has made me age a few more years. My wrinkles are more prominent, and I'm not really liking that look. In addition, realistically I've never been able to maintain 135 pounds for any length of time since I entered my forties. I'd get there and even a few pounds below, and could maintain it for about five minutes, then proceed to gain 100 pounds. I don't want to spend the rest of my life trying to maintain an unrealistic goal.

In addition, I would like to stop paying Weight Watchers $44.95 every month. The 155-pound goal is based on the highest weight they allow for me to become a Lifetime member, which is my ultimate goal. To sit in that green chair every week and not pay Weight Watchers any more money.

I have a ton of things I want to share about how this time is so different from all my other weight loss attempts, but I'm going to save that for my next post. I want to keep posting because I feel like I have so much to share that's so different from what I used to do to lose weight. I feel like I may have finally figured this out. No, it's not drugs or surgery, and it's not magic. It's a combination of a lot of things that are working for me, and might work for someone else.

Happy 4th of July weekend!

Sunday, January 15, 2017

Just a little crazy

I'm a little bit disappointed in my weigh-in this morning, but I know why it's not better than I expected:

My last Weight Watchers' attempt in 2015:

Feb. 23, 2015 weigh-in:  233.4

Jan. 5, 2017 - Jenny Craig weigh-in:  222.0 (the real start of mindful eating)

Jan. 6, 2017 - canceled Jenny Craig, but stayed on track.

Jan. 8, 2017 WW weigh-in:  218.4

Jan. 15, 2017 WW weigh-in:  215.4

Net Loss:  3.0 pounds for the week for Weight Watchers, but in reality a good 7 pounds are gone.

At least I'm not all the way up to the 2015 weight which was scary. That was close to my all time high of 240 back in 2007.

I love my new Weight Watcher Sunday meeting! It gets me out of bed and gets the day started right because I have to be there before 9am to weigh in. It's sort of hard to do, but it's worth it. The leader, Cathy, is wonderful. I just love her! Plus a Sunday weigh-in keeps me from overindulging Friday and Saturday since I don't want to ruin my weigh-in.

This isn't easy, that's for sure. It's as hard as it is every time I have to go down this road. For some odd reason, I feel a bit more relaxed this time. I'm not being as crazy about it as I've been in past attempts.  Just a little crazy, just enough to keep me tracking every bite I eat. My boyfriend - skinny guy - doesn't understand this tracking of food, it's foreign to him).  He thinks I'm a little nuts, pulling out my WW app every time I eat. If that's crazy, oh well! At least I'll be crazy AND skinny!

Sunday, January 8, 2017

We're back in the saddle again!

I made the 9am Weight Watcher meeting today. I really just wanted to stay in bad in sleep in, but I remembered my promise to myself on Saturday. New year, new start.

I wasn't surprised when I weighed in. I'd just weighed at home, fully dressed and knew it was going to be ugly.  I weighed in at 218.4. My last weigh-in was 7/13/2015 at 205.8. If you're doing the math, that's a gain of 12.6 pounds. Ouch.

One thing I know for sure, Weight Watchers works. Last year when I started Weight Watchers on 2/23/2015 I weighed in at 233.4. When I stopped going in July I had lost 26.6 pounds. I really wish I had stayed with it.

Note to "Anonymous" who left a rather snippy comment on my last post about giving up Jenny Craig (after five hours and two meals) and startingWeight Watchers:

1.) If only it was as easy as just eating the right foods. You sound like you must be pretty darn perfect and don't need any help from anyone. Good for you. I'm happy you have such a fabulous life. It's not that easy for everyone. Some of us need support, and for me, that's where Weight Watchers comes in.

2.) You obviously don't understand the Weight Watchers program. They actually encourage eating whole foods. I don't eat any of their packaged/processed foods. I don't like them because I can taste the fake flavors. Weight Watchers actually encourages their members not to eat processed foods. Yes, they sell them but you don't have to buy them. They're crazy expensive and full of sugar and chemicals. I don't buy them, and never have.

3.) Yes, Weight Watchers is in this to take our money. They're a company in the business of making money. So are organic grocery stores. Whole Foods = whole paycheck. Everyone is in "it" for the money.

I'm just happy to be eating better, even if it's only day two. I feel like I'm back in the saddle again and it feels good!

Saturday, January 7, 2017

Jenny Craig - a big FAIL!

My new plan to lose weight was the Jenny Craig plan. Yesterday I made it a total of five hours on the plan, one breakfast, one snack, and one lunch. I'm no longer on the plan. 

The food tastes like garbage, it's highly processed and contains all sorts of nasty ingredients. The lunch, Chicken Street Tacos, contained fractionated palm kernel oil - who eats palm kernel oil anymore? It's one of the main causes of the destruction of rainforests. And "fractionated" just means they made it into a complete saturated fat. Some articles claimed it's the equivalent of partially hydrogenated oil. This is the picture on the box and their website. Trust me, it didn't look anything like this picture. There weren't any pieces of chicken and the main ingredient was soy something or rather. I wish I'd taken a picture of it so you could see what it really looked like. I took one bite and threw it in the trash.

The breakfast bar had corn syrup as the main ingredient, followed by sugar, then cane sugar. What the heck?! I literally felt sick just reading the ingredients.

I was on the Jenny Craig plan in 1990, when the real Jenny Craig herself was in charge. The food was really good and satisfying. I actually enjoyed it. I lost 40 pounds, and it was relatively easy. The company was sold several years ago to Nestle Foods and again in 2013 to North Castle Partners. They have ruined the company. 

Not only is the food awful, but my consultant was equally as bad. She was loud, obnoxious and couldn't answer most of my questions. She kept running to her director's office to get more information. I almost walked out but thought I'd only have to see her once a week, and I could handle it. 

Then there's the price of the food. The monthly fee is only $19.95. The first week of food was $184.00. In addition, you have to buy all your fresh vegetables and fruit from a regular store. If I remember correctly, I think a week of food in 1990 was $80 - $100. I expected it to be expensive and was willing to pay the price. Unfortunately, the quality of the food is substandard. 

I'm done with Jenny Craig. I'll go into their office next week and cancel my membership. They were so disorganized they didn't even have me sign a contract. It's supposed to be month to month so I'm out my monthly $19.95, hopefully just for this month. The food will go into the trash today. In hindsight I should have tried the 3-day sampler pack of food you can order online for $39.95. I should also have known the food would be different, nothing stays the same, especially after 27 years. 

Next up, Weight Watchers. I was planning on attending a meeting today at 11:30am. I just checked and their last meeting was at 10am. I'm signed up on their site and have the app on my phone. I tracked yesterday and today's food (funny - Jenny Craig food from yesterday entered into the Weight Watchers app). I'll attend the 9am meeting tomorrow. I've always loved Weight Watchers.

Friday, January 6, 2017

Hello 2017 - an Update of my life

Since it's been over six months since I've posted anything, here's an update of my life:

1. I'm 61 1/2 years old - the 1/2 is important because retirement is in my future!

2. I've spent years of yo-yo dieting, going from 135 up to 240, and losing and gaining hundreds of pounds. I've been very successful at times, but I always gain the weight back. In the past three years I've manage to get close to my highest weight of 240. I'm currently at 222 pounds. The last time I was near my goal weight was in 2009 - 155 pounds. Not good!

3. I've been divorced for three years after a 26-year marriage, which was miserable from the start. I'm so happy to be out of that mess. I'm currently in a wonderful, stable and healthy relationship with a really good man, Charles (who is 6' and weighs 165 pounds). He never comments on my weight and says I'm beautiful no matter what the scale says (yes, he's a keeper!).

4. I work for a large airline as a computer programmer. I've been with this company for 33+ years. I've been in IT for the past 17 years. I sometimes love my job and sometimes hate it. It's a really good company and it has paid my bills for a long time, but after 17 years in IT I think maybe I went the down the wrong path. It changes continually and quickly, and as I age, it has become more difficult to keep up.

5. I don't have any children, just one sweet, angelic kitty. She's 14 but don't tell her, she thinks she still a kitten.

6. People always ask my hobbies, and things I used to do don't really apply anymore. In the past 10 years when I was at a lower weight (even at 190), I was into active things like hiking and biking. As the the weight has crept up, my activity level has decreased. Now I'm more into reading. My last book that I finished last week was TheBazaar of Bad Dreams, by Stephen King. It's a series of his short stories. I haven't read anything of Stephen King for years, but I loved this one. A really quick read even though it was almost 700 pages. I'm currently reading two other books, My Sister's Keeper by Jodi Picoult and Trouble Maker by Leah Remini. Both great books, but both are sort of sad. My hope is to lose some weight and get moving again. I don't like a sedentary lifestyle.

This post is already too long, so I'll go into the details of my latest weight loss endeavor in my next post. I just started it yesterday, but I already have an opinion about it. Please stay tuned for the latest chapter in my weight loss challenges.

AHA - Aware Halt Action

Weight this morning:  171.6  Weight Jan. 1, 2017:  222.0 Weight lost this year: 50.4 Goal: 155 I listen to a lot of weight loss podcast...