I made my 10% lost today!
I haven't posted for a while because I wanted to make sure this time was for real. I really believe I'm on a much different path to lose weight than in my previous attempts. I'm not saying I've got it all figured out, but I feel stronger and more in control. My mind feels like it's in a different place this time.
This is what's working for me:
1. Weight Watchers works if you work the plan.
I've tried many weight loss plans, but Weight Watchers is the only one that I keep coming back to time after time. I always lose weight, and as most of you know, I always gain it back. It's not because it's a bad plan, it's because my head was always in the wrong place. The beauty of Weight Watchers is that I can eat whatever I want. If I wanted to eat processed foods, I could. Or, I could eat more natural, unprocessed foods which is what I prefer. Plus the camaraderie of the meeting. I'm fortunate because I have an awesome leader and meeting group. You have to find the right one for you, and I finally found it.
2. Forgive myself
This is old news to everyone, we hear it all the time. Seriously folks, you can't just talk the talk, you have to walk the walk. It's easy to say, well of course, I always forgive myself for my bad eating and regaining weight. The key is, do you really mean it? I'd say I forgave myself for messing up, but in my heart and my head, I'd continue to criticize myself. To the point of self-destruction.
3. I'm not perfect.
This is the hardest thing for me to accept. In all my past attempts at losing weight if I didn't track my food every single day and stay within my goal (whether calories or SmartPoints or whatever), I'd beat myself up mercilessly. I had no concern for my own feelings. I'd never tell another human being they were lazy or stupid or an idiot. Yet I'd tell myself these things whenever I'd go off plan. Not anymore, now I just tell myself, "hey, I'm human. I make mistakes. I'm not perfect, and that is totally okay.".
4. I set three goals every week.
They can be anything related to my weight loss and health. The key is these are attainable goals, not unrealistic goals that I have to practically kill myself to meet them. No longer do I say I want to lose five pounds this week, or track my food every single day, or hit the gym seven days this week. Crazy lady that I was, I thought this was possible to do for the rest of my life. It's not possible. Now my goals are easier and if I beat my goal, that's great. If I fail, well, back to #3 - I'm not perfect.
My achievable goals for this week:
- Track my food for three days this week, regardless if I'm eating perfectly on plan or not. If I track more days, that's fantastic, but at least three days.
- Exercise at least three times this week, minimum 30 minutes a session. I've been beating this goal every week since January 9, when I started, but it's still my minimum. More is better, but it's not required.
- Read at least two chapters of Food Addiction The Body Knows by Kay Sheppard.
5. Figuring out what is going on in my head.
I've finally come to the realization that there is something wrong with me. I don't think about food like other people think about it. It's not simply nourishment to fuel my body. My relationship with food is much more complex and sadly, very detrimental to me as a person. Both my health and my mental state suffer because of it. As people like to say about their messed up personal relationships, it's complicated.
I've been doing some research about my food problem. Right now I'm reading the book I mentioned in my goal setting above - Food Addiction The Body Knows by Kay Sheppard. I'm only on chapter one but it's like this book was written for me. I passed the 'are you a food addict?' quiz with flying colors. I said yes to all but two of the 20 questions. I'm definitely a food addict.
I'm listening to podcasts on my daily commute to and from work. It's only 25-30 minutes each way, but it's a great way to use my time and it's so inspirational. I've been a podcast addict for about a year now, but only recently started listening to a couple of weight loss podcasts. My favorite is Half Size Me with Heather. I've even joined her Half Size Community. It has a wealth of information on weight loss, and I love the interviews in her podcasts.
Another podcast that I love, which many of you probably already know about, is Transformation Planet with Sean Anderson. Yes, the same Sean Anderson that writes The Diary of a Winning Loser blog, which I've followed since he started it in 2008. I love his wit and his voice is so easy to listen to. His podcast is still in it's infancy, I think he has less than ten podcasts so far, but I see great things ahead for it.
I'm going to do my best to post at least once a week. It's more of a record for myself since I don't think anyone really reads this blog anymore. It's nice to have a record for myself. Plus, I think I like this path the best, of all the ones I've traveled down. This time it feels real. Not some unattainable plan I could never keep up with for the rest of my life. This time, the road never ends.